17th December 2012 – I am trying to write, but I can’t. Beside me on my desk my phone is broken. No reception and No Network, No calls, No messages in or out. I want to fix it right now – but this is the time I allocated to writing. This is the hour I found to write, during the business to Christmas, with my three sisters all pregnant, (Two Biological and one sister in Law) I am from a big family and so is my lover. Christmas time is crazy.
I was so proud of myself that I could find this hour to myself. I am sitting in the back yard, in the summer sunshine and in the first moments of this great hour – my phone stopped working and I am so compelled to fix it.
Why is it, that I can’t concentrate, relax or focus, knowing that my phone is broken? It doesn’t need to be fixed right away. I can wait an hour before getting messages? Or can I? It should be a good thing, having a broken phone, as I cant be interrupted for my hour of writing.
I am just using this broken phone situation as procrastination, something that needs to be solved immediately!! – Forgettting the long term plan I have made for myself to become a writer over the next five years. Suddenly my long term writing plan is gone and I am wrapped up in another immediate distraction.I am forcing myself to work!! Get back to it – The phone is fine. It can wait.