It’s Never Going to be this Hard Again

The Emerging Writer, Writer, Writing

25 June 2013 – Today I went to the Gym for the first time in my life.  I have walked a lot and done yoga and a few dance classes, but this time I was going to the gym.  I consider myself moderatly fit and assumed I could certainly finish a class that was tailored for a beginner.

You will never hurt again, like you hurt that first time

The Emerging Writer

Tura Gym

What was to come was far beyond my comprehension.  I skipped, jumped, leaped about, squatted and pushed and stepped up on to things to the point where I thought I was going to faint.  I was halfway through a circuit I was expected to do five more times.  I have ever moved my muscles in that sort of way before, never lifted a weight above my head or squatted on a rope.  I collapsed, lying on the floor as the room tilted slightly off and my fingers quivered and shook.

What I realised while I was lying there, heaving my chest up and down, sucking in the hot air of the gym was that this was never ever going to be this hard again.  I had turned up to my first class.  I had come, in my outfit and I have participated.  This was the first time and I was there.  And I will never again have to go through my first time at the gym.  It will never be this difficult again, because I have started.

Remember this as you start to write – Maybe for the first time in your life.

The first time you try it is the most difficult thing ever and every single time you go back to it will get easier.   Your muscles will form a memory, you brain will familiarise itself with the action and you won’t have to look on the map to see where you’re going.  You will never hurt again, like you hurt that first time.

 

Do you give away writing for free? Hannah Kent does…

Today I was back in my cafe, drinking lattes and writing my novel.  Yes, I know lattes are so 2005 and everyone cool is drinking cold drip dutch filter long blacks….  But what can I say, I like what I like!  I now have a loyalty card for my cafe where I get a cute little stamp when I buy coffee.

The Emerging Writer, Hannah Kent, Burial RitesIn the book store I found a free sample chapter of Hannah Kent’s Burial Rites.   Such a good idea!  I took it home, read it, loved it and have decided to buy the book now, when yesterday I was an ignoramus.  I think that this is such a great idea.

My dead line for giving my manuscript over to be read by another human being is fast approaching.  I have got a LOT of writing to do.  So glad I found my little cafe, just in time.

I am so fucked – I am soo worried about what is going to happen.  I am going to just be a normal failure like everyone else – Meghan, stop ranting and do something!!

The More you Write – the Righter your Writing

13th June 2013 – There is a simple and very obvious reason why you should keep writing even if you think your work is terrible.  Because the more you write, the better you will get.  The more you write, the better your writing will become.  The more times you sit down to write, the easier it will be to sit down and write.

More writing = More writing.

It is for this reason that I am not completely scared out of my mind at becoming a writer.  I know that if I commit myself to writing every day, even if I am having a bad time, not producing anything or finding myself crying out in a fog of self loathing – If I work through this –  I will get better.  And so will you.

Do you write everyday?

Some days are so hard you think all you will be able to write is your own suicide note.  Or an apology text to your boyfriend for loosing it at him when he mentioned that maybe you might want to take a break.  Today, is a particularly bad day for me too.  Everything on my list that I wanted to achieve has not worked out.  Doing a chapter proof on my manuscript has only made me realise how terrible the whole novel is going to be, weather or not I tell it from the first or third person.  ‘Who cares I think, when no one is going to read it!’

So I am writing this article.  Because I know I should be writing.  Because as soon  as I stepped away from the things that weren’t working and realised that I still needed to be writing, this article just came out.

I am so glad that I didn’t give up.

I hope you don’t either.

What are you going to write today?

 

A Good Day for Getting Nothing Done

The Emerging Writer, Writing

Brunch

11 June 2013 – I am so distracted today.   I don’t know why.   I cant concerntrate on anything.  All I want to do is eat hot chips and fall asleep.  I convinced my partner the best thing for us to do is to head out for breakfast.

Back from breakfast and I’m googling slow cooker recipies for dinner.  Today is the perfect day for blog writing.  When I can’t focus on anything huge, I can just write one post.  Just one and I know I have written something today.  Even if it is just this.

07 December 2012

7th December 2012 -I am hard at work on my 12 thousandth outline of my first draft of my first book of Nothing!  So frustrated right now.  There are so many possibilities for these characters and without me knowing the root of this story it seems impossible to decide anything.  I want to tear it apart, but I am told this is just a stage.

I am sitting down to write a lot more than I used to. As I write more the plan changes more frequently – Nothing seems to really stick.  There are too many characters all at once and my head is aching – Who knew that thinking too much can actually give you a headache?  I am stumped and loosing a little bit of hope right now.

Writing from your bed room

The Emerging Writer, Finding the Space

My First Work Space

I still don’t have anywhere to write.  This is me working from my bed, in my room in a share house in Sydney.  Ps, my rent is like, expensive.

So, say I was going to do this…Hypothetically.  I was really truly going to be a writer – just humour me for a second.  I guess I would want to write a book about where I am from.  I grew up in one of the most magical places on earth, but when I was a teenager, I missed it all.  The fantastic natural wonder of the place was lost on me.  Now I am starting to realise just how special it was.  All my ideas keep coming back to the bush brushing up against the sea.  In Merimbula trees and grass grow straight out of the sand, and then the mountains rise quickly behind them.

I have been doing a little research online and found some great news articles and photos and stories…  Making me want to go down for a few days and check the place out.

Might plan a trip home – Hmmm still have no money…Can go see Mum anyway while I’m down?  Could get Mum to pay for my trip???  I will call her.