19th August 2013 – Don’t you just hate it when you think you are writing really well and then you meet someone who smashes all your dreams apart. Perhaps this has never happened to you before. You are lucky then. I am not!
This happened to me over the weekend. I went to a meeting with the Writers of the Far South Coast. I listened to the speaker talk of a heros journey and I started to sink in my seat, my shoulders folded in on themselves and I tried to hide.
I have heard all of this before, dont get me wrong. I have listened to this talk probably 4 times before. But something about yesterday struck me. I searched back through my novels 87 000 words, as I sat there. I know it is all written quite well. I know things happen during the novel. I know there are events and they happen in a sequence. I know there is conflict and tension and surpirse and love and all of that stuff. What I don’t think – is that the story truly holds itself together.
In short – I am screwed. As a piece all on its own, it would not hold together. If I let it go sailing down a river, it would disolve. If I pushed it out of the nest it would crumble. If I stood it up on the bench, it would topple over.
I was thinking about making a cake. About all the things that makes a cake taste good, butter, sugar, cream, walnuts, chocolate and coffee. Yum. But with no egg the cake is nothing – it won’t hold together, it won’t bind and it won’t rise slowly in the oven. I have just made a big pile of nice tasting ingredients, sort of mixed together.
Do I start from scratch?
Is this where I am?
Do I stop everything and pull it apart and try to build it back together?
I learnt the rules so that I could break them, but instead I just forgot they existed all together. What an idiot.
You’re probably thinking…. Ummm Duuurrrhh! What are you ten, that is so obvious.
I guess I just – well I thought the world I created would be interesting enough, the characters so intriguing and cute, the writing would be so great that it would just – Work.
I think I have to start again. From Scratch.
Please, if you have ever gotten almost finished and then realised that you have not even started, please let me know. I need to know I am not the only crazy idiot out there. How many times have you re written your novel from scratch?? Call me.